I feel like a lot has changed since the beginning of school. I've become a lot closer with some people and i'm really content with it. I don't care about who i'm really with as long as it's my best friends. Christmas is getting closer and closer. All I have been thinking about lately when I see a cute girl, is that I want to be with someone so bad. I just miss the feeling of not being able to wait to see a girl, and feel amazingg when you're with her. Laughing and smiling and being happy. I don't want to sleep because I love thinking about being with someone. I really give up on this one girl. It's obvious she has other things in her life and is too busy. Me and my friends need new girls to hang out with on the weekends so if you're cute hang out with us!!! Lol sometimes when i'm drunk i'll see a girl and tell myself how amazing she is and how she is like my dream girl. The perfect girl. I always seem to find one when i'm drunk. I don't care anymore. I want to do really good in school from now on so I can really do what I want in life. I think about it more and more everyday. If I just do good in school, get into a good 4 year college. Get an internship, get a job, get on with my life, be happy. That's how I want thing to be. And a girl who is perfect, someone who understands me and is crazy about me. Night for now.